Our meeting scheduled for today will not be happening.
I was feeling very overwhelmed, and distrustful — just what was the district doing by inviting 10 district personnel? What is their goal, here? Were they trying to intimidate me? Through some calls to friends and local resources, I was directed to call the state department of ed, because they actually have a department that acts as a watchdog for parents and students, and ensures that school districts are following the proper procedures. Come to find out, our district people had not followed the proper procedures, so I was allowed to request that the meeting be rescheduled. And I did.
It may only be delaying the inevitable, but one of the things that they were supposed to do (and didn’t) was to provide me with a list of people who have been invited, as well as an agenda, of sorts — a statement of their intention for the meeting. The delay will also allow me to marshal my own troops, which I didn’t really have time to do for the originally scheduled meeting.
I can’t tell you the relief I felt when I spoke with the incredibly supportive lady from the state. I was really struggling to hold myself together that morning. I was beginning to feel helpless and hopeless. Fighting the system is extremely difficult, and I was feeling so alone. But with all of the people I’ve spoken to in the last couple of days, I feel like I’m beginning to have a very real support network of people who can help me in my quest to get the best for my boy.
Tonight I can breathe. Tonight I can get some sleep. Tonight I can hope.