Eleven and a half is such a strange age. He seems like a giant, adult-like person from a distance, and then I get closer (sometimes only when he’s sleeping), and he seems like such a little child, albeit in a body that is almost as tall as mine.
And his actions and emotions are equally dichotomous – sometimes very mature and sober, and others toddler-like and silly. I’m sure I have a wistful, “Where did my baby go?” face, because he catches me looking at him and puts on his, “Mom, you’re looking at me weird” face.
The specter of Middle School is hitting me, because I am going to attempt to register him today.
Am I ready for this? Is he? It doesn’t matter because it’s happening whether we want it to or not. He wants it to, and I… I just want him to be happy and productive. How many middle schoolers does that describe? How many people want to re-live the good old days of middle school? Very few. I have a bit of experience with it after having taught there for almost half my life, and it is a struggle (at least in some fashion) for the great majority of the population.
I worry. And I miss my baby. And change is hard. But he and I are strong people, and together with The Man, we’ll get through it. Somehow.